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I admire Lar, and I admire her stories about Lindsey. I've read her list of his attributes, aptly titled "My Lindsey," and I agree with much of what she says. I would say he's My Lindsey, but, heck, we can share. I've written many Lindsey stories, primarily posted on Angel's Night, now under the section called Lonely in Your Nightmare, but also on LindseyFic and Christian Kane-Maverick. There are a few in other places as well.
I think we see Lindsey's background a little differently to begin with. First of all, I believe that Lindsey was born six to seven months after his parents' wedding. I think his mother and father had promising futures (I see his mother as a brilliant and/or talented young woman, his father as also being bright but more athletic scholarship-worthy) and had to give them up because of Lindsey. Also, their parents virtually disowned them due to the shame and disappointment, which is why they found themselves in such abject poverty. That's the first of two reasons I think Lindsey was raised Catholic-his parents and their families did not believe in abortion. Secondly, not many people would have six children nowadays unless it's for religious reasons. That's why he has so much guilt-you can take the boy out of the church, but you can't fight twelve years of Catholic education. Somewhere along the line his mother died, possibly around the time that flu took his two siblings. Although I believe only two of the remaining ones were taken away by the child welfare people and the other one died in childbirth, I'd accept all four kids being separated with his drunken father keeping Lindsey, the oldest, which is why I don't think he's sending money to his mother or keeping tabs on his siblings. By the time he was wealthy enough to pay to have them located, he was in too deep and didn't want to make them hostages to fortune. I do believe that Fred is Lindsey's sister, but that's partly based on Joss Whedon saying in an interview that he would have an interesting story for Lindsey in Season 3. They are, however, both from the southwest and both extremely intelligent; there is also some physical resemblance.
Therefore, I disagree with Lar's first two points. Although I think he was capable of getting laid from 15 on, as he was certainly attractive enough, he chose not to because of a deep-seated fear of being forced to give up his dreams due to an unwanted pregnancy, having seen it happen to his own parents. Even men who aren't the real fathers can get trapped this way if they have been foolish enough to have had relations with the mothers. I also think he didn't drink as he saw firsthand what liquor did to his father. I see a very determined Lindsey who would do whatever it takes to get away from Oklahoma and out of the poverty and helplessness of his childhood/young adulthood.
I'm not sure he slept with Lilah or with his secretary or Faith, but I'd yield those points to Lar. However, whenever we've seen his office, we've never seen a desk, an alcove, or any provision for a personal secretary. And why wasn't his name on the door of his office in Season 2?
As to loving his boots and jeans and his old truck, I don't know about that. I think they're all reminders of the life he tried to get away from. In one of the few times we've seen him at home in the evening, not having just arrived from work, in the episode The Trial, he's not in his western clothes. I also believe that he took his truck to run over Angel because it was not as likely to be traced if anything happened, and he didn't care that much if it was damaged. No seat belts, no air conditioning, not very comfortable. I can't see it as his vehicle of choice before he left in Dead End.
Now on to his love life. First of all, I do not and never did see him as gay or bisexual. Would he have slept with a rich girl (or boy) in college or law school so he wouldn't have to work so much? Maybe, although I think he went to college on at least a partial athletic scholarship, most likely baseball, as he's too short for basketball and too small for football. Would he sleep with a professor for better grades? In her outstanding story Sea Change, Yahtzee has him giving oral sex to a law professor for the highest grade in the class. It's possible, although I could more easily see him with a female professor. However, I think his determination to be rich and powerful might have overruled any scruples he may have had.
I believe he did have an active sex life after arriving at Wolfram & Hart, and I feel that the young actresses who were Russell Winters' wannabees were possibly the ones he slept with. After all, they'd probably be happy to please Mr. Winters' handsome young attorney. However, I believe this came to an abrupt end when he lost his hand. In one of my stories, Tears in Heaven, and in someone else's story, which was called either Mirror, Mirror or Mirror on the Wall (unfortunately I cannot remember the author, but it concerned a brief affair between Lindsey and another of Christian Kane's characters, Idaho Guy from Broken Hearts Club), Lindsey feels that his prosthesis is repugnant to possible sex partners. He feels he can read the repulsion on their faces. This may be one of the reasons that he falls in love with Darla, as she is very vulnerable after she is raised from the dead. She is very dependent on him, and he feels protective of her. As we see in Dear Boy, the prosthesis doesn't seem to bother her, so she is a possible sex partner. I do not believe that his feeling for her has anything to do with Angel. However, he does not wish to force himself on her if she's unwilling. Could he have had sex with her a hundred times? I don't think so. Would it have made any difference? Of course not. I don't see that he was ever obsessed with Angel as anything more than a particularly annoying thorn in his side; however, the office scene in Five by Five did seem to have an element of flirting or just a challenge between two alpha males who were trying to annoy and one-up each other while remaining civilized.
Yes, I do agree with Lar that Lindsey had a death wish and that he would gladly have allowed Darla to kill him in the winecellar (and even more gladly allowed Darla or Dru to kill Lilah!). I disagree with those who see Lindsey as becoming something of a wanderer, going from one dead-end job to another and from one seedy motel to another. Perhaps that would be what he does for a while, but I don't think he could stand living like that for any length of time. I think the pendulum would come to rest in the vertical position and Lindsey would settle down with a nice girl and raise some children. Any man who would risk his life as he did must eventually want to have his own kids. It would never be Lilah because of her remark at the beginning of Reprise that she should have had children to offer up. I see him with another lost soul from Los Angeles whom he meets on his travels. My preference is for Kate Lockley, but I could believe Faith or even Fred, assuming she's not his sister. I just can't or won't see him as hopeless. My Lindsey will eventually find himself, find love, and find happiness.
Imzadi
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